~the time has come..~

finally..

to my supergirls and dearest friends, if u've anythings and u cant reach me through my cell phone, kindly please leave your msg through my personal blog or my email. pray for my safety. everything will be alright,insyaAllah.

with lots of love,

E

~stone!~

i was at KFC to buy dinner with Fitry and abah.

i queue up while they were waiting outside.

when it was my turn, suddenly fitry ran to me, and asked me to buy him a carbonate drinks.

adik: kakngah, buy water pedas.. (he meant carbonate drink)

me: ha?

adik: water spicy..

me: ok..but nnti abah scold you if you drink ice..

adik: ala, buy la no batu. ( he said no ice)

me: ok.

after settled everything, outside the KFC:

adik: kakngah, buy water adik x?

me: got2..

adik: no stone kan?

i stare at abah and abah was smiling at me.

i tried to figure out what he was saying,

and finally..

it was "no ice kan", but he said no stone kan?

me and abah just laughing on the way to car.

thats fitry, my 5 years brother, apple of my heart.

~pergi.~

am waiting for rain to stop..

long journey, drive alone to seremban..

so, better i just wait in my office and wait for the traffic to be okay as it must be congested since it was raining..

friday sumore..

having San Francisco's coffee..

thanks colleague!

too much sugar intake today..

pening already..

planning to do some charity works tomorrow..

see la how..

can't wait..

just few days left..

then i can go..

enjoy..and leave every things here..

looking for serenity.

finally.

~tea time!~

am craving for green tea!

jom!

this time is the turn for the cafe in damansara utama area..

next time, i would love to try around bangsar and ss2 area.

i think this is the best place for hang out with friends.

i love the interior design, the way they decorate the cafe.

but for the menu, no comment.

they said the cuppies are delicious, but for me, i don't think so.

normal cupcakes with ordinary tastes.

not so much difference with other cuppies.

and the green tea costs 7 bucks.

maybe i should try other meals next time.

~hope is paralyzing ~

why do i wrote?

i wrote as i am scared i will forget what happened in my life.

if i wrote, i will remembered it forever.

Thus, i can take a lesson from that.

i just want to remember everything.

happy and sad stories.

especially the one that really left the deepest scar.

i think i cant go through this darkness anymore.

i felt helpless.

they said, you will go through the darkness in every phase in your life.

the only thing you need to do is just switch on the light to lighten yourself, so you will not lost in the dark.

but i have no money to buy the light.

and i have no courage to search the light.

im stuck in the middle of the dark tunnel.

i just know how to cry and cry sumore.

until i am tired.

but i think, i already tired to do anything.

i can't take this anymore.

it's unbearable pain.

i just want to go.

just go.

i just want to be alone.

~perseverance~

don't know what to say..

something bothered me so much till i lost my strength to do anything.

feeling like absence minded.

i just do anything that came in mind without thinking the consequences that i need to bear.

anyhow,who should bear the brunt if not me and myself kan?

so, just do it while you can.

life is full of risks.

trying so hard to laugh.

went to PBD just now,

having my lunch there.

RM18 for one plate of ayam penyet.

don't want to say munch.

that's the fact living in the city.

who said its a joy being here?

unless if your pocket full with money.

then, you'll enjoy.

need to continue my works.

will update later.

xoxo.

~gracias~

thank you for willingly putting up with all my actions before.

thank you for becoming the light of my darkness once.

thank you for becoming the savior of my hardships.

thank you. terima kasih. dankie. hvala vam. de'kuji. dank u. salamat. kiitos. merci. grazas. Vielen Dank.

~whisper. to be heard..~

eventually it will hit the bottom.

i do not want to say much.

thank you very much.

p/s : i need my supergirls right now. really in need. i need ijan for shoulder to cry on. need nad for tukang picit my kepala time migrain. need asma to scold me. need b for hang out time stress. need put for movie.

my family and my supergirls are my pillar of my strength.

i feel like i am alone. feel like wanna cry out loud.