~hope is paralyzing ~

why do i wrote?

i wrote as i am scared i will forget what happened in my life.

if i wrote, i will remembered it forever.

Thus, i can take a lesson from that.

i just want to remember everything.

happy and sad stories.

especially the one that really left the deepest scar.

i think i cant go through this darkness anymore.

i felt helpless.

they said, you will go through the darkness in every phase in your life.

the only thing you need to do is just switch on the light to lighten yourself, so you will not lost in the dark.

but i have no money to buy the light.

and i have no courage to search the light.

im stuck in the middle of the dark tunnel.

i just know how to cry and cry sumore.

until i am tired.

but i think, i already tired to do anything.

i can't take this anymore.

it's unbearable pain.

i just want to go.

just go.

i just want to be alone.