~nothingtosay~

i am tired.

tired to think.

tired with everything.

its getting harder and harder.

but, learnt something from usrah class today.

i know, and realize that i had to leave it everything to Allah.

human can't play God rite?

has faith in Him.

Allah is watching over me.

no calamities that befallen upon a Muslim beyond their capability.

everything gonna be fine.

InsyaAllah.

take care.

xoxo.

~it's did not work.~

my ten years friend urged me to get to know his friend.

some kind of match making.

i don't know.

maybe its a curse.

its never work out.

starting from I am still undergrad kot.

actually, i really didn't even care.

maybe at this moment la.

i have to think about this later.

i am giving the benefits of the thought that my friends thought that i am not enjoying my life since i am single or maybe i am lonely, so they come out with the craziness idea, which introducing me to their friends. or maybe their bf's friends.

but, as i said earlier, its never turn out.

hehe.

i just think that there are no rushing in this kind of things.

it will come to you and sit softly.

its only the matter of time.

:)

i learnt something last night,

the more we are looking for the happiness and perfectness, we might get confuse with our own selves.

eventually we realize that the happiness was there. long time before.

~we only have the present time with us, not the past~

just because of the past is painful,

doesn't mean the future will be.

so, never let events from the past change the events for the future.

good nite.

till we meet again.

~monday blues!~

perseverance.

hate date line.

makes me miserable.

and give me a clumsy look.

no matter what, have to settle it on time.

pening already.

stressed!

wanna apply leave to relaxing my working brain, working body.

Absence Details

Proposed Absence Status Confirmed Absence Category Full Pay Leave Absence Type Annual Leave Absence Reason Start Date 21-Jan-2011 End Date 21-Jan-2011 Days 1 got it already! i am on leave on Thursday till Sunday! but have to be more discipline. no shopping. no outing. i have too! freezing my cash flow. hate it. in the bright side, i can spare my holiday at kampung. really rindu my fitry. rindu my seremban's geng as well. but as we are age, we need to travel in different path. it never be the same if we ever met again. the gap is there. rindu my ten years friend. rindu the good old days.

~jumble of feelings and thoughts~

"semoga engkau kan mengerti

akan perasaan ini..

maaf ku telah terbuai terbuang

maaf sungguh ku tak bisa untuk kembali padamu"

i think we are not meant to be together.

they said,

we make them cry who care for us.

we cry for those who never care for us.

and we care for those who will never cry for us.

this is the truth of life.

its strange but true.

once you realize this, its never too late to change.

me said,

its better to love someone that love you.

fullstop.

walk off if someone does not feel the same way as you do.

do not give them the privileged of the relationship.

it needs two to tango rite?

i am nowhere perfect to talk about relationship things.

i am hopelessly in love.

i have failed before.

but the failure had taught me a lots.

accepting reality.

its the most important.

Love is like bus stop, there is always going to be another opportunity for the bus to stop again- if we are ready for it at the bus stop.

Life is too short for brooding over the sorrow.

as for now,

i am enjoying my life.

i am too scared to move on the next step, or starting on a new relationship.

its only because i am fragile, as a tiny papers.

trauma maybe. lol.

Just like a book's cover, it may appear to be hard but once you open up, you'd realize the thinny layers of paper.

And the reason behind this is because they are protecting the fine paper.

My cinta:

my supergirls:

~there are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept,

things we don't want to know but have to learn,

and people we can't live without but have to let go~

~outing!~

had fun today..

outing with the subang's gf..

spending time with the girls.

maybe last gathering for subang's team.
knowing the fact i have to leave them soon.
very soon.

but, i did not spill out anything to them yet.

i just can't do it.

i am scared to waive goodbye.

its not the cease of our friendship, of course!

just moving out from subang. not from the country.

even if we are in different world, the friendship still there.

its remain. friendship is priceless.

i can guarantee that.

i know i have to talk it out and work through it.

I know you will be around.

love comes and goes, but friendship stays.

I have to seize the opportunities.

I do not know what future holds,

I just go with the flow.

I thirst for challenges in life.

just because the endless pursuit of something better.

May Allah bless.

~yesterday is going, today is here, and the best will be tomorrow~

finally.

he realized.

going back together with Lins.

in spite of the fact that Lins hope nothing from him.

really hit me.

she did not wait for or expect a response.

If she truly loved someone, it doesn't matter if he doesn't feel the same way, her love conquers all.

he really there for Lins through thick and thin.

So do Lins.

just believe in hope.

if the weatherman predict 10% it's going to rain, we will bring along our umbrella rite?

means, even it's only 10% chance, the hope still there.

whats really matter is yourself.

either you wanna give it a try or not.

Don't give up when you haven't yet even started!

Sometimes, its good to have a second chance.

Learn from mistakes, and do better.

~it's always darkest immediately before the dawn~

~our daily life~

sharing is loving! caring.

~enjoy every moment of life~

Time would not wait for anybody.

If you keep saying you do not have time, then you will not.

If you keep saying you do not have money, then you will not.

If you have a dream just go after it.

Train will not wait for you.

Bus will not wait for you.

Your friends will not wait for you.

Even flight ticket will not wait for you. it will keep changing the price time by time.

siapa cepat, dia dapat.

~time is like a river, you cannot touch the same water twice. because the flow that has passed will never pass again~

~waiven flag~

Don't look back.

It's time to clean out the past and let in the new.

Seize the moment and opportunity that comes knocking my way.

Life is full of series.

Stop brooding over the past.

Its never too late for changes.

changes to be better.

its quite alien to start changing.

as we are trying to go out from the comfort zone.

but,if its for the sake of future, why don't we give it a try?

too many things to take in one day.

really make my mind turn 360. upside down.

i just do not know.

external force really gives me a great pressure.

feeling like having a fever.

i shouldn't attend it i think.

sacrificing my quality time on Sunday.

lending my ears to hear the talk, the business talk. the entrepreneur talk. or what so ever.

open up my heart to take the positive side.

but i know, I already set my mind on the negative perspective.

i just cant help.

I've built my wall.

I have to build my confidence on it first.

only then, it will be easier.

but, the problem is myself.

as stated earlier, i already built my wall, so its not easy to confide me.

i am not an entrepreneur, so i am not a risk taker.

i want everything i did worth it at the end.

i am too fragile, so i don't want to give up in the middle of the path.

maybe that is the reason why i should not involve in business.

maybe i will change my mind sooner or later, who knows?

but as for now, it is...

no.

~if you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, then the answer will always no. if you don't step forward, you are always in the same place~

~don't mess with your ex~

after a long break from writing..here i am!

a very tiring weekend.

rejoicing with my lovely gf's.

having a very good time.

laughter was everywhere.

watching movie at pavi, titled "my ex haunted lover"

moral of the story: be careful with whom you are friend with..

when you dwell on the past, you let the past overcome yourself..

you will depressed..and starting to hold grudge..

when the time is right, you start planning to revenge..

you will do anything, even killing..

things happen because they were meant to be..

it is inevitable..

so, try to look it from the brighter side.

after watching, sightseeing.

going to capture night view of KL at Ampang Hill ( not sure act whats the name)

having dinner at penchala.

reach home at 10 pm.

what a great outing!

~make the laughter outweigh the tears~

alhamdulillah..

i think everything is started to fall into places now.

thanks.

after a few weeks..only now i got the explanation.

it did not bothered me at all.

i even did not hurt.

maybe all i ever wanted is the simple clarification.

to help me seeing the clearer view.

annoying and irritating.

we cannot get everything that we dream for, rite.

everything happen for a reason.

Life is like an hourglass.

Eventually, everything hits the bottom.

All you have to do is wait it out until someone comes along and turns it around.

what really matter is are you ready to make changes, or you just wanna give up and stay at the bottom for the rest of your life.

after 6 months being here, (wow! 6 months already..time really flies) i make a lot of friends.

before this, i think i should built a wall because i did not want anyone to overtake my self worth and make me think small of myself. ever again.

but,

heart is a bottle of perfume.

if you never open it, nobody will knows the fragrance inside it.

but, if you keep it open, soon you lost all the fragrance.

so, act wisely. n be careful in choosing your friend.

it's a great achievement when you make a friend for hundred years.

it could makes a greater difference having everyone saying a simple "hi" and smiling at you, rather than being isolated in your environment and no one cares.

I have been busy for this month.

I didn't even manage to read the Dec 10 and Jan 11 issues of RD.

so sad.

but, a busy person never has time to be unhappy.

life is too short for brooding over sorrows.

thinking of moving out from subang.

actually, i think subang is an interesting place to live in.

but, have too.

cant wait for march!

autumn! eh salah..spring!

~friends are priceless~

my friend leave me a link yesterday.

http://man-united.co.nr/

hahha.

to my surprised, he knows everything.

i did not spill out anything to him, but he just knows.

one of my best friend @ my personal advisor.

he understands me very well.

he can makes me laugh when i am crying.

he really there through thick and thin.

happy knowing you.

wish you a fabulous and happiness life.

thanks for everything.

~don't write your name on sand, waves will wash it away. Don't write your name in sky, wind may blow it away. write your name in hearts of people you come in touch with. That's where it will stay.~

~u smile, i smile ~

i can't do this. really.

pity her.

but, i have to shoulder the responsibility.

its my job anyway.

get well soon.

pray for your healthy.

come back earlier.

if and only if..

sigh.

its only a week of twenty eleven, but i already broke the vow.

E, please abide by the rules of your resolutions can u?

don't dwell on the past.

~"A smile is the lighting system of the face, the cooling system of the head and the heating system of the heart"~

~farewell~

hate it when the time has come..

the time to say goodbye.

but they are going for good.

see you on next holiday.

take a very good care of yourself..

love you both.

when the past calls, let it go to voicemail.

hush.

~up and down the hill~

today is the first day of twenty eleven.

going back to abah's kampung to allay my boredom sitting and pondering at home.

doing some charity works for abah.

being a rubber tapper is not an easy task.

only now i felt the hardships of my grandparents to raise up their child.

but i m not being a rubber tapper today, just helping in some planting works.

the day without makeup, definitely! luckily its not every day. relieve. lol.

great experience i think. sharing the times with family.

good start for twenty eleven.

but,

yesterday almost grab the Samsung NX10, but didnt make it. sad. :(

~at my kampung~

~a proof that i'm doing my job!uwaa. kotor body glove!

~winning doesn't always mean being first, winning means you're doing better than you have done before~